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antisnotabug) wrote2018-12-04 07:28 pm
antisnotabug) wrote2018-12-04 07:28 pm
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Things are still rough.
They are still fucking rough.
I'm overwhelmed, at this point. There's all this shit I need to change, yeah? And I can't, it's too much, it's way too fucking much. I feel like I maybe at some point had an accomplishable list and somewhere, I let it get out of control. Not sure when. I guess depression stopped me from trying. And now I'm drowning and the idea of starting on one thing, the smallest thing, is nearly enough to send me into a panic attack. Dishes and clothes are piling up. Haven't gone food shopping. Falling behind on homework (two weeks before finals, A GREAT TIME TO DO IT). Haven't started changing my diet. Fell off exercising. Money is getting a little tight (that's always a December/Christmas thing though, December is the fucking worst). There's so much to do and I can't do it all.
I don't know where to start. I don't know how to ask for help.
They are still fucking rough.
I'm overwhelmed, at this point. There's all this shit I need to change, yeah? And I can't, it's too much, it's way too fucking much. I feel like I maybe at some point had an accomplishable list and somewhere, I let it get out of control. Not sure when. I guess depression stopped me from trying. And now I'm drowning and the idea of starting on one thing, the smallest thing, is nearly enough to send me into a panic attack. Dishes and clothes are piling up. Haven't gone food shopping. Falling behind on homework (two weeks before finals, A GREAT TIME TO DO IT). Haven't started changing my diet. Fell off exercising. Money is getting a little tight (that's always a December/Christmas thing though, December is the fucking worst). There's so much to do and I can't do it all.
I don't know where to start. I don't know how to ask for help.